8.26.2004

crap mood

i've been in a crappy mood yesterday and a little today...

yesterday, i was reading the recovering angry white chick's diary and she has some song lyrics on it. 'my sister' by juliana hatfield. and i realized something awful. this is the first time in 18 years that i have forgotten the anniversary of my sister's death.

and fuck. i just checked my blog to see what it said... and i was bitching at my mom because she couldn't send out an email. fuck, i'm such a bitch.

i hate myself right now... i am the worst person in the world. i deserve to be flogged or something.

i dunno. these last few weeks have been weird for me. i have no grasp of what's going on from day to day. it just flies by. every day i'm shocked, just shocked that it's that day.. for instance, i can't believe it's the end of august. and a couple of weeks ago, i couldn't believe that it was already august... etc...

so, the feelings of self-loathing coupled with the return of my neck pain... yeah, i'm in a foul mood today.

3 Comments:

Blogger MeEh!! said...

sorry honey, you're having a bad day(s)... You can't get mad at yourself about stuff like that... we all know you're a great person, and just because life gets shitty doesn't mean you are.....

love ya!!

10:52 AM  
Blogger Angelina said...

Hey, you!! I wouldn't have posted that if I knew it would stir up any pain....sorry. :(

4:02 PM  
Blogger grace said...

oh, stop it! it's okay... how would you know i have serious issues? :)

*muuuwah*!

4:56 PM  

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