crap mood
i've been in a crappy mood yesterday and a little today...
yesterday, i was reading the recovering angry white chick's diary and she has some song lyrics on it. 'my sister' by juliana hatfield. and i realized something awful. this is the first time in 18 years that i have forgotten the anniversary of my sister's death.
and fuck. i just checked my blog to see what it said... and i was bitching at my mom because she couldn't send out an email. fuck, i'm such a bitch.
i hate myself right now... i am the worst person in the world. i deserve to be flogged or something.
i dunno. these last few weeks have been weird for me. i have no grasp of what's going on from day to day. it just flies by. every day i'm shocked, just shocked that it's that day.. for instance, i can't believe it's the end of august. and a couple of weeks ago, i couldn't believe that it was already august... etc...
so, the feelings of self-loathing coupled with the return of my neck pain... yeah, i'm in a foul mood today.
2 Comments:
Hey, you!! I wouldn't have posted that if I knew it would stir up any pain....sorry. :(
oh, stop it! it's okay... how would you know i have serious issues? :)
*muuuwah*!
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